A forever urn for Ordino
Actual Urn Size: 5.5"x5.5"x17"
Actual Urn Size: 5.5"x5.5"x17"
This is my forever urn for my beloved Ordino who passed away unexpectedly at the age of 6. It took me almost 2 years to finish his urn through tears, anger, guilt and sadness. I Iearned that though time heals – I had to be willing to let what’s happened go. I decided to write a closure letter to Ordino to help me finish his urn. My baby is home with me in his final resting place, with his letter and I am at peace. I’ve shared my letter to him below…
My dearest Ordino:Feb. 2013
It’s been a while since you’ve visited me but I want you to know that I think about you every day and miss you tremendously.
I will never forget when your Daddy gave you to me for Valentine’s day. You were the cutest, whitest, fluffiest little ball of fur with big paws.
You’d whimper while you slept because you were growing so fast. It broke our hearts listening to you…but everyday when we would wake up – we could see that you had grown.
You’d tumble down the stairs with your large puppy paws.
You grew to be the most handsome beautiful dog I had ever seen.
Mommy was so in love with you and so proud that you were mine – so much so, that permanent slobber stains were a fixture on my car. I’d loved taking you places and watching people gasp as they saw you pass by.
I’ve had a really hard time letting go and remembering the good times, as I write this I realize it’s just the beginning of many good memories.
I have felt a lot of guilt – guilt for you being a part of some rough years, guilt for not knowing what was wrong inside your body, at times thinking you looked sad, stressed or just not having a healthy day. Guilt for not taking you out of a not so great relationship that had nothing to do with you yet, you felt the pain. Ultimately, guilt for not being able to save you.
So, I am going to stop there and go back to letting you know how much I loved you and more happy times…I know you are watching over me, I know you loved me – those times when you would bang your head on my thigh and lean into me. The times you would hit me with your paw, almost knocking me over, and didn’t we have a good time wrestling?
When I need to see you I think of my favorite picture of you in the water and grass taken in Durango, you were about a year and a half old…so happy, so alive. So healthy.
I used to love our runs together to the dog park, we would run and run as fast as we could there, play and it would take us an hour just to get back b/c you would sit on the trail and not move.
You were so stubborn and lazy when you wanted to be.
You loved our car rides and I loved taking you.
Having towels around the house for your slobber was just as common as having a picture frame in every nook. It was 2nd nature for me to wipe your mouth. I would get so offended when people would comment about your slobber. That’s mommy’s love for you.
I’m so glad you got to go to Wimberley one last time. To see Luca walk you down the gravel driveway is another favorite memory. You were always so good with her. Patient and loving. You knew how much she loved you.
My sweet baby, our life together was cut way too short but you will live forever in my heart. You were my first dog of my own. No one will ever replace you but in your honor I will rescue more of your breed and carry on your name with our vineyard.
Thank you for showing me your unconditional love, I hoped you felt it from me as well. I can’t bring you back but I will promise you from now on to remember all the good times we had. It’s only fair to you and me to do just that. I love you my udha-budha.
Rest in peace my sweet boy.
Jan 1, 2005 – Nov 22, 2011
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